About me

My name is Kati and this is my story. I have been blessed with two wonderful children that are into sports, so they keep me running everywhere. I am married to a wonderful man who is currently away in the military. I have a wonderful full time desk job. Most of my time I spend hanging out with my kids, family and friends.

 I turned 30 this May and let me tell you, my body was in the worst shape it's ever been in and I have been pregnant twice. I never weighed myself unless I was at the doctor. When I got on the scale and saw that I weighed more then I did when I was pregnant with either of my children, I was mortified!!  I weighed in at 178 lbs on May 1, 2014. At that moment I decided it was time for a change and to be a better example for my children.

I knew I was going to have to change a lot of things in my life. For instance after work (I sit at a desk for 8 hours) I would go to one of my kids games and sit on the bench and would eat whatever I wanted from the concession stand and then go home and sit on the couch and watch TV. The only "work out" I would get would be from practicing softball/baseball with the kids. I was not setting a very healthy example for my kids. I can tell they are starting to become lazy and not wanting to play outside. When they aren't playing or practicing their sports they would rather spend the time indoors playing a video game or watching TV. Their eating habits were also getting worse. They would rather eat junk food then a healthy meal. They learned this by watching me. I was so ashamed of what I had become and the example I was setting.

I was ashamed of my physical appearance, so that set off an emotional whirlwind. Most days I just felt numb. I was so unhappy with how anything fit or looked on me, I would get so down on myself. I did pretty well hiding what was going on in my head from everyone, which was a huge mistake because it lead to depression. Anytime I would pass a mirror or catch a glimpse of myself, I would say negative things in my head such as "what's wrong with you, why do you keep getting fatter", "why can't you just get off your ass and do something about this fat", "you have gained so much weight", "you're not attractive at all" and probably some worse ones that I won't list. When I wasn't at work or busy with the kids I just wanted to lay in bed and not do anything at all except eat and eat and eat. I felt anytime I went out that people were judging my "muffin top" or "double chin"or were thinking "she shouldn't wear that, she is too fat for it". Clothes shopping sucked!!! It seemed every time I went I had to go up another size!! Another issue I had is when anyone would take a picture of me I would cringe, because I knew as soon as it was posted I would hate how I looked in it. I preferred to be behind the camera instead of in front of it. I have very low self-esteem. I have a lot of negative energy when it comes to myself and that is one thing I will change. I will no longer allow myself to say negative things about myself. I am going to keep a positive attitude to help keep me motivated. No one is perfect, and everyone makes mistakes.

Now you know a little about me. I have a long way to go in my journey. I have a lot of things that I need to change in my life. My goal main goal is to be a better example for my children. My next goal is to eat healthy everyday and keep up with the exercises. I also will be working on my mental health. I hope you keep reading my blog so that you can see what I am doing to achieve my goals, and hey it may even help inspire you to reach your goals.